Excelsior

Why is it that no matter how many times I'm approached with a particular situation, I react the same way each time. When I think about it, its really quite immature, yet when it comes down to actually changing my ways, I don't. It seems as though the more I want something, the harder it becomes for me to obtain. Maybe if I didn't want it as much, it wouldn't be as hard to get. Or maybe I have a problem with over analyzing things in my head and blowing small, meaningless things out of proportion. Either way, it's confusing and frustrating at the same time. Progress much?

The show last night was a lot of fun. We were all a bit rusty from not playing much lately due to recording, but it was amazing none the less. Possibly the most people we've played for yet. Playing live gives me a feeling like no other and I love it. Geoff Rickly of Thursday explained it the best. When you get on stage to perform, everything bad in your life fades away. All the petty bickering that us as human beings take part in disappears. All your fears and anxieties in life are removed, and for that brief period of time, you are truly living in the moment. 

We've all been working hard as fuck, and despite how it feels now, I know it will all be worth it in the end. Actually, screw how it will be in the end. It's already been worth every ounce of sweat and blood (yes, blood) that we've put into this band. I can't be grateful enough for everyone who appreciates the music that we create. Sometimes it seems too good to be true, but other times (namely when I'm at school), it seems like its not real, or out of reach.

I've been keeping busy with work lately due to it being finals week, but the end is in sight. Eric will be here on Saturday, and three days after that this semester will be over. Moving out is going to be so much fun, I can't wait.